seven

i hear your voices
multiple personalities
they give me choices
like run or lose or bleed
but i don't mind it so much when i'm with you
i don't seem so angry
i lose my attitude
i think i gave it to you

i couldn't sleep last night
i laid awake and i cried and cried
and when i found my sleeping eyes
i dreamed a dream of how i died
i couldn't sleep last night
i laid awake and i cried and cried
you should be happy with yourself

you live like i die
you laugh while i cry
i choked while you drank yourself to sleep that night
and when it gets this tight
i'm afraid i might
and i'm afraid i might

these dreams i'm having
the doctors say i'm not right
meds and arts and crafts
to get me through the night

i'm not bending inward
i'm not losing any ground
i'm whistling at the gentleman as he makes his rounds

it's honor and persuasion
perseverence and good luck
not one but seven minds
veiled and true and stuck

percussive sawing
watch me swing away
watch the sky from windows
watching the sky fade

i couldn't sleep last night
i laid awake and i cried and cried
and when i found my sleeping eyes
i dreamed a dream that we both just died

i couldn't breathe last night
the air escaped but i tried and tried
i'll take you in
but it'll take some time
i'll trade you back my spine and mind

i'll trade you back
just let me fade away

~jay morgans